Janie Beyer

As Beyonce states in her song we are flawless. However, that’s not reality. I can definitely say that I have numerous flaws. Ones I’m not proud of for sure. One thing I constantly struggled with growing up was my level of sass. That sounds like a joke but it became a serious problem towards my parents. I took it to the extreme and never respected my parents the way they deserved when I was a middle schooler. I consistently rolled my eyes, didn’t respond to them when they asked me a question, and talked back to everything they said. I knew it was wrong but I didn’t try to change until around when I got into high school. And because I had done it for so long it was an extremely difficult habit to break.

Another flaw that I have is my short temper. It’s gotten a lot better over the years but I definitely still struggle with certain things making me incredibly angry incredibly fast. Now my anger normally just results in rude comments towards others and not for the most part yelling. But I always run into the problem once I’ve been with the same people for a long time. I try to stay patient but certain personalities make my mind explode. Of course that’s not good. Hence why it’s one of my flaws.

Another thing I have a huge struggle with is comparison. Being a dancer I’m constantly comparing myself to the girls around me or the girls on media. Whether that be comparing my level of dance or even what my body looks like. When getting ready for a competition it’s hard to not look at other girls and see how skinny they are or how defined their abbs are. I always find myself trying to change my body image or my style of dance to fit other people. It’s a huge flaw of mine due to the fact that I deal with it every day in drill team. I’m always wanting to be a better dancer but comparing myself to other girls and their strengths only results in me feeling bad about myself.

In all of these scenarios I find it completely unsatisfying. My flaws are called that for a reason. They are not good parts of me that I’m proud of. In fact I never bring those up to people when I first meet them. Obviously they are things I try to hide or conceal as well as I can. But what I’ve found over the years is that all of my flaws are completely worthless. My faith in Christ helps me to realize that none of those things will ever help me in the end. Jesus is the only thing I have that keeps me away from these flaws. He gives me patience with my parents and friends. He’s the one that tells me I’m perfect the way I am. He created me exactly how I look and how I dance for a reason. And because of that I have the ability to let go of all these flaws and actually enjoy life to the fullest ability. I’m so thankful to be at the point of realizing Jesus is the answer to all of my flaws. So with Him I am flawless.